The tracking number stated that my mini chandeliers had been delivered yesterday to my front porch! Â At 8pm last night I looked again…
Front porch, back porch, neighbor’s porch… Â no packages.
This morning I pulled up the email to get the customer service phone number and there it was in black and white. Â Delivered to my old house on Del Monte Avenue.
Panic set in.. Â The new owners have sprawled “return to sender” on everything they have received with my name on it- even though I left them my email and phone number in case of said scenario.
I had formed an opinion of “them” as being uncaring and hostile.
I gathered my courage, washed my face, threw on some clothesÂ and got in my car- destination Del Monte Avenue- before I had a moment to change my mind. Â I had not been back to my old house since I moved almost a year ago- not even to drive down the street- although I got a quick view in my peripheral vision when I would drive down Llagas Road before my new development created a street with more direct access.
Not even aÂ quarter mileÂ away yet worlds away… Â I pulled up in front of the house and jumped out. Â I had a handwritten note to leave just in case no one answered the door (which I expected). Â It was only 8am and even though I’m usually awake for hours by then, the rest of the world sleeps in.
She answered the door, clad in a bathrobe, mascara smeared and hair in disarray. Â She was so kind! Â “Oh, they are in the garage! Â Let me go and open it!”
In my imagination IÂ walked with her through theÂ sunlit entry and into my cheerful kitchen. Â Past the breakfast nook and throughÂ the faithfulÂ laundry room. Â I opened the garage door and then I met this strangerÂ in the driveway.
AndÂ it was me.
I asked “Are you enjoying the house?”
She responded “Yes! Â I’d love to ask you in but…”
Little did sheÂ know that I had already been inside.Â Â AndÂ it was lovely.
I have done the grieving and I’m feeling quite content in my new home. Â ButÂ this has been the gracedÂ momentÂ that I have needed to complete my transition.
On this very beautiful Good Friday morning I have received a special delivery.
And I am finally delivered.